Can't make this over.

Far Awar - Nickelback

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait?

Just one chance Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you, I have loved you all along
And I miss you, Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you,
I'd withstand all of hell to hold your hand

I'd give it all, I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you, I have loved you all along
And I miss you, Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

So far away Been far away for far too long
So far away Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed I need to hear you say
I love you, I have loved you all along
And I forgive you for being away for far too long
So keep breathing 'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it hold on to me, never let me go
Keep breathing 'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it hold on to me, never let me go
Keep breathing hold on to me, never let me go
Keep breathing hold on to me, never let me go
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Nickelback is awesome.
Prolly my fav band.

Labels: far away

Sry for the lack of update.
I'm not havin any effin mood to update this alrdy.
I'm alrdy busy as it is.
Sigh..
We'll see how it goes i guess.
March Block Tests just ended and i was screwed left right up down center, all over.
It's only MBTs.
Gotta mug my ASS off during the June hols.
Actually i've gotta start now..
BUGGER.

Uhhhh Whut?
Okay. I wanna get new spects.
Preferrably black. Since i've gotta wear them to NS next yr anyway.
But i'm not getting used to black spects.
I look like an efftard when i wear it.
Prolly too used to having my current spects on me.
2 small bottles of blood to be drawn during NS checkup.
Plus the, oh so many, IQ tests to be done.
I shld just fail it aye?
Put me to some dumb department and let my brain rot for all i care.
Cuz i cant differentiate the red and green traffic lights.
Red = go, green = stop.
Dy/Dx?
Screw maths k.

I'll prolly blog mucchhhh lesser after this post.
Anyway, i'm alrdy bloggin so little.
Wont be much of a diff aye?
3 posts for the whole of March. Pathetic much.

I kinda reflected a little.
And i somehow drifted towards the thought of Chinese.
Rmbering the torturous Sec 3 and 4 lessons with CL teacher.
I cant even speak proper chinese without pausing within the sentences and mixing Singlish into it.
Completely lost touch.
So much for education?
Anyway, copped from SJB's blog:

Education has made people knowledgeable.
But what has education really done to some people's morals and values?
It sometimes results in arrogance and ignorance.

Not gonna elaborate much about it.
Think about it urself.
Has it really made me knowledgeable?
I kinda forgot all that i learnt in Sec sch to be honest.

K enuff of update. I dont know what exactly to write alrdy.
I've gotta do maths & geog.
But screw it, i dun tink i'm gonna do.

Random:
Gemma Ward is uhmazing.

Labels: screwed

School's out, finally.
Thank god there's no school tml.
The amount of workload just isnt giving enuff time to blog, breathe and chill.
I NEED it.
Time to do revision is alrdy so short, and there's still tuition crap going on.
Ugh.
Its realllyyyyy demoralising when u put in effort but dont reap the fruits of ur effort.
Its a cruel world out there.
What has education turn us into?
Makin us so competitive that it becomes a human eat human world out there?
SJB was right.
The expense of education comes with the sacrifice of human values.
God dammit. Even teachers are teaching students to "kill" each other in the exam hall.
Can this world even get any more complicated?
So what now?
I guess i'll be the person to be out there with a vengeance to kill and exterminate huh?
Watch out. I mite just bring a knife to school one day and start wiping the school population out.
Hah. Hilarious shit. I probably wont even have the capability to do it.
Give me a break please! I need an escape from reality, and i think only sleeping helps me to do that.
But screw it. I'm not even given the luxury of sleeping enuff everyday.
The wonderful A level results of the seniors dont scare and pressure me as much.
Its the possibility of being left behind while everyone progress that is freaking me out.

You know, its so funny.
Everytime i blog, its just only about school school and school.
Hah. What else can i say?
Mundane much.
Mite as well not blog anymore.

Labels: holding on

I could go on and on. Forever.
Goddammit whats wrong with this world.
Just having the aweful pukable feelin' right now.
Not in the right state of mind, at all.
So many things going thru my mind recently and im on the brink of exploding.
Joshua, whats wrong with u?
The feeling isn’t rite, everything’s not okay.
And I’ve no friggin reason why im SOOOOOOOOO short tempered these days.
Every single little thing just makes me pissed.
Stress? I'm not even sure what or why it is like that.

Self delusional freak.
My phone's going crazy, losing things here and there.
And losing all of you isnt makin' this any better.
I feel trapped, damn you jealousy.
This yearning isnt gonna disappear any time soon.
Imma just gonna go ahead and do what i want, follow me and be me.
Not gonna care what others may think.
One day, when i've got it right, u'll see.

Oh darling I wish u were here...

Labels: my luv

Home - Michael Bublé

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home, Mmm

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”

Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far
From where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right

And I know just why you could not come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day
Has come and gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home

Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

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I've never realize how beautiful this song was until recently.
Slow, i know, i am.
Michael Buble's voice is easy to get addicted to.
I should sing this song in sch everyday - I WANNA GO HOME.

Labels: but i dont have a home

This post is gonna be really random..

Muhhhhhney.
~~She~~ I work hard for the muhhney $_$.
Its not enuff, though i shld count my blessings..
Still waiting for more ang baos.
And CNY this year was cool, really cool.
Im just so lazy to go into details now.
Anyway, a pretty smooth week for me!
Just 3 days of break in a week can satisfy me so much.
Ugh. Still struggling with the foreva pain-in-the-ass maths.
I just cant seem to do the maths tutorials!!
And the pain will resume full fledged next wk.
No more long holidays for me..

Effin NS sent the reminder letter to register for NS!!
Shivers...
Next yr if i manage to pass friggin NAPFA, i would probably be some botak head.
I dont know wadda update, as usual.
OH YEA,
In 10 hours time i'll be having SATURDAY REMEDIAL programme for maths.
Screw itttt.
My saturday's arent supposed to be touched!
And there's additional work to complete just for this remedial.
Yes i need help, but its just really uncool for the sch to do this to us!
Totally uncool.

Made a resolution to slp early this year.
No more late nites!
Latest would be until 2AM,
Cuz i'll get to see 2AM! (insider's joke)
Cant afford to slp late and wake up late anymore.
Dont know where this motivation is coming from..
It's still here.
But the motivation's only to complete work.
I'm not an effin mugger.
I still cant score well even though i've done all my homework.
Unfair much..
Some ppl are just genius.
BTW, SHINee's comin back to SG! Whoo~

Just showin' some Korean pop love!
Lollipop 2 is here!

Labels: tomorrow never comes

What now?!!?
I'M NOT EFFIN RUNNING AWAY FROM WHAT I DO.
WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT!
CANT U EFFIN JUST TELL ME WHAT I DID?!
IF ITS SUCH A EFFIN BIG DEAL THEN JUST SAY IT?!
WHAT FOR DO U WANT ME TO LOOK AT IT?!
AND IM NOT SCARED TO FACE MY WRONG DOINGS! JUST SAY IT TO MY FACE GODAMMIT!
QUIT GOING ON AND ON AT ME, AND JUST TELL IT TO MY FACE!
U JUST EFFIN SPOILT MY FRIGGIN MOOD.
WHAT IN THE WORLD DO U WANT ME TO DO THEN?!
YEA FINE, ITS FRIGGIN MY FAULT HUH?
I DONT WANNA EFFIN ARGUE WITH U ANYMORE.
MY SALIVA AND BREATH SHANT BE WASTED ON U.
HAHAHA. WHY DID I EVEN BOTHER TO TALK BACK.
JOSHUA U'RE SUCH AN EFF-TARD.

And on to the next effin thing.
I wont bother being another person because of you.
Its so obvious u enjoy being with him so much more than me.
If its thats the case then go ahead.
I wont change myself to become some hyper excited, funny person just to just be better friends with you.
Heck! its not even true friendship between us, its just so unnatural whenever i'm with u.
Joshua, once again, u're such an eff-tard!
Foolishness foolishness foolishness.
UGH.
Those new year greetings messages can go to hell!
I'm not in the effing mood for whatever shit this is anymore.

Labels: FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

Oooo luh luh.
It's the new year tml.
Happy lunar new year!
I want ang baos ang baos and more ang baos $_$
Finally can catch a breather during this short holiday.
Not saying it's gonna help much, but at least i wont have to stare at papers everyday!
Sch is still as messed up as ever.
I tink my streak for single digit marks for maths still isnt gonna end.
Maths test was the SHIT!
But heh,
i'm still motivated, for god knows what reasons.
EXTREMELY motivated.
I wanna finish tutorials and mug!
Crash and burn? Hopefully not.
At least being motivated is better than not being motivated at all.
I love school! I love homework! I love all these SHIT!
No sarcasm, really.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Alexander Mcqueen's dead!!
Couldnt believe it when i heard about it.
I still friggin wanna see his collection during fashion week!
Perhaps no one would know why he suicided, but there's always this emptiness coming along with all the fame.
Kudos to this man.
Cant bear to see him go esp after he's came up with all these.
Ugh.

R.I.P

Labels: rah-rah-oo-luh-luh

I dont get the whole point of e-learning.
We go to school because we have to learn there isnt it?
So why is it now students have to resort to "self studying" at home?
Ugh.
The frustration is killing me.
Whr did all the funny people disappear to?

J1s are starting to flood the school.
I kinda only want the J2s to dominate the whole school.
So much more peaceful and quieter that way.
The whole canteen would be ours to dominate!!
MJ canteen food is boomz to the shingz!
Doughnuts are calling out to my dear tummy!

Labels: speechless

Ooopps?
Finally not lazy to update.
It's just so busy in school.
I barely have enuff time to use the computer at all.
The rhythm of mugging is picking up and its getting easier to keep away from the computer :/
Accomplishment much?

I really dont know what else to blog.
I've lost the blogging flowwwwww.
Just trying to keep positive and keep going on strong.

OHHHHHH.
Something to blog about would be the SHINee fan signing thing.
But nah,
I shant talk about it.
Frustrating experience..
They'll be back, I'M SUREEEEEE.
And it's definite to be an overnight queueing experience.

Oh oh oh oh~~
TAEYEON!!

Labels: i'm gonna give all my secrets away

Never Gonna Be Alone - Nickelback

Time is going by
So much faster than I
And I’ve started to regret not spending a little with you
Now I’m wondering why
I’ve kept this bottled inside
So I’ve started to regret not telling all of it to you

So if I haven’t yet
I’ve gotta let you know

You’re never gonna be alone
From this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go
I won’t let you fall
You’re never gonna be alone
I’ll hold you until the hurt is gone

And now as long as I can
I’m holding on with both hands
Cuz forever I believe that there’s nothing I could need but you

So if I haven’t yet
I’ve gotta let you know

You’re never gonna be alone
From this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go
I won’t let you fall
When all hope is gone
I know that you can carry on
We’re gonna take the world along
I’ll hold you until the hurt is gone

You gotta live every single day
Like it’s the only one
What if tomorrow never comes
Don’t let it slip away
Could be our only one
You know its only just begun
Every single day
May be our only one
What if tomorrow never comes
Tomorrow never comes

Time is going by
So much faster than I
And I’ve started to regret not telling all of this to you

Your never gonna be alone
From this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go
I won’t let you fall
When all hope is gone
I know that you can carry on
Were gonna take the world along
I’ll hold you until the hurt is gone

I’m gonna be there all the way
I won’t be missing one more day
I’m gonna be there all the way
I won’t be missing one more day

Labels: never gonna be alone