Aces day dance today was retarded. I tink i stoned most of the time. And considering i didnt hv a partner, cuz of the odd number in people. It wud be even more retarded if i danced with an invisible person. Forgotten almost everything that was learnt on Monday. And i've gotta dance the whole thing on Monday during Teacher's day/Aces day.. Speaking of Teacher's day celebration on Monday, Meridians are all supposed to wear sports related attire for "Be yourself day". So much for being yourself but having a restricted rule. I thought i'd never ever hv a "be yourself day" after secondary sch. Disgusted. And so, my class decided to wear a black shorts + a shirt which must be a colour of e olympics sign. To add on, we still hv to wear KNEE length socks - for the nerd effect. No, just, no. We'll all look like MAJOR toots. But its all for the fun ._. And we're not gonna hv a teacher's day party for our class. Becuz, the teachers we have just ARENT worth celebrating. Now, i'm thinking of poning again since we're only going there for Aces dance and the concert.
DAMNNNNNNNNNNN. Feel down in the toilet when i was bathing in the evening. Its like sudden Earthquake happening when i realized i fell. Butt bruised. Head bruised. Legs bruised + cut. What a retard. Yea, i know, my fault. Cuz i was jumping in the toilet, for god knows what reasons. So, i fell. My butt hurts like mad.
Promos is in almost 1 months time. 32 days to be exact. Time to start mugging. And no, i'm not gonna start ranting on how i hate mugging again. I just hate it sooooo much that i dont wanna talk about it! NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO SEPTEMBER MUGGING HOLIDAYS. EOM submission is next Friday! 1 week from now. And mine's still not perfected. Still got tons of things to edit. Grrrrr. So i've to do it tml night.
~GONE~
Do u even know how irresistable you are? I just CAN'T keep my distance from you, i'm sorry. Obviously NOTHING will happen in the end, and i'm just making myself fall deeper into ur trap. Oh boy, i wish u'd know. But, u wont EVER know a thing. Why did i even allow myself to fall into ur trap. UGH. ^_^
Chem SPA tml. I better ace this one. I know i can! Wootz!
Anyway, i managed to pass Econs test for the 2nd time in a row, getting Ds. But i havent been able to pass Chem test, even up till now. NEVER. And my maths broke record. Got a ZEROOOOOOOOOO for integrations etc etc. Hahaha. ZERO. My first ZERO in JC. But not my first in life. I've only gotten 2 ZEROs in life. One in JC, now, the other was in Sec sch for A MATH. MATHS SUCKS. Such an ass for stealing my precious ZEROs. Damned.
Sunday, August 23, 2009 @ 1:00AM --> 226th
I doubt i hv any more time to update anymore. Life's just so crammed up. SPA is up next wk. God knows how i'd fare for it. Hopefully the trail SPA is the same as the actual ones.
Shit. Can't tink of anything more else to write. Seriously. Life's too boring to even blog. I miss O levels. My mind's blank right now. And I can hear thunders right now. Hopefully it rains, and it'll be all cosy to slp. This post is all random cuz i've NOTHING to say. I mite as well go do GP proj. Ahhh. Gone.
I'M GAY APPARENTLY. Believe it or not?. Hah. Right :D
Blogger is seriously cocked up. When in the world are they gonna actually fix it?! I've tons of things to rant about. I havent blogged for quite some time. Can't really rmb, but i'll try to.
Firstly, those kids last wk in the indoor stadium totally rocked the house down. I really admire them for their courage to be able to perform to a crowd of mayb 10, 000? But somehow, while they were performing up there, I suddenly felt very discouraged, just as if this feeling of despair just loomed over. Lets just put it this way, Everyone have their dreams and goals, but mine seems really far and unachievable. Dammit. I can't believe in myself. Coldness to the max.
On Thurs and Fri participated in FunFestique STARING competition. It was totally retard. Interhouse competition of which house can stare the longest. Callisto managed to clinch a 3rd place position among the 5 houses. I replaced Mingyang cuz his eye somehow teared like MAD while staring halfway. My team was actually eliminated in the first qualifying rounds. So, Thur's staring was crazy shiat. My match went up close to 10minutes of staring. Couldnt blink altho my eye was alrdy straining like a women who burst her water bag. What a retard analogy. The girl opposite me teared like crazy cuz of dry eyes. But somehow she managed to keep her eyes open. Dammit. I teared towards the end. But at least managed to win. Freak shit. I tink there's a prize presentation tml. Heard that there's gonna be medals. RETARD. Winning medals for STARING and GUESSING SONGS. Wtheck. But I can proudly say i can DIAO damn well now. Staring's also one of my forte i guess. Like who in the world has staring as their forte. As if can take u to anywhr in life, guessing songs too. This is insane. But one thing's definite, I can be a psychologist. I tink so far i've managed to guess around 5 person's Myers-Briggs Personality type correctly the first try. Not bad at all.
Principal's talk on Wednesday was so inspiring yet sian. Lai made it sound like the Promos and As are major giants to be overcomed. But, in fact, they are. Its gonna be damn tough. And im feeling scared actually, of being retained, of failing promos. But maths is just KILLING ME. Horrible. I have to pass maths and its gonna take a miracle for it to happen. Lai said she was gonna give out the Promo results to everyone of us personally in the hall i think. And those who didnt hit the promo criteria will receive their results first. Holey shiat. Scary enuff. I gotta snap out of this slacky attitude. But its so hard not to use the computer after i come back home from sch. Im addicted and i cant quit. Its killing me. And then the S4 series were being treated as the louziest series again. My class being the last of the series can then be taken as the louziest class luh? Damn crappified. First Lim Botak (form teacher) and now Lai. ARGHH. JC kills the minds of innocent young teenagers. At least the talk inspired me to work harder. But i kinda lack motivation. I work under pressure but there's no pressure ATM. So what now?. I've no idea.
And after talking so much about inspiring me to work harder. I still havent studied for the 2 Tests tml. Wth. Maths and Geog. Maths i can giveup for nuts. It wont help even if i study. I shld go study geog now. Tml my brain's gonna be screwed damn hard. My life seems to be revolving around sch and sch and sch and sch. Mundane to the max. I need freedom.
Wanted to give up doing all these alrdy. On the verge of telling you. Its really no point if the heart has no conviction in whatever im doing. I'm doing what im doing just because im SUPPOSED to do it. It's an obligation now. Im tired of doing it alrdy. I'm not inspired and CONVICTED. Its a routine now. But SOMEHOW, u're psycho as always. Spoked to me, thanked me etc. At that point in time, i knew i couldnt bring myself to say what i wanna say to you after u said all those stuffs to me. U said perservere. But honestly, I don't know how much longer can i perservere. I might just give up and leave. I thank you cuz u're the person who's most of the time been there for me. I just cant open my mouth to say that, I QUIT. Lets just put it that I don't wanna be a disappointment to you when u have such high hopes in me. I'm not as strong and all that u made me sound to be like. Really not.
Dammit. So many tests in just 1 week. Econs and Chem on Fri, Geog and Math on Monday. It's only 1 day into schooling and im tired. Finding it harder n harder to sit down n mug each day. Save me.
On a brighter note, today stayed back in sch to watch Meridian's Next Top Model. So damn hilarious, esp when it came down to the posing challenge. Damn brave to do those kinda poses up on stage.
And here's the trailer:/
I need some fresh life blown into me. !@#$^^&(*)*_%$#@(#@~
STOP ITTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!! Will all of u stop it? I can't swallow any of this anymore. I shld just seal myself off. Just let me rot and die. It's none of your businesses.
And no, I don't wanna face it. Call me a coward, i don't care. I can't bring myself to face that fact. The things that it reminds me of, it's just indescribable. I suck big time.
It's never enough to say I'm sorry It's never enough to say I care But I'm caught between what you Wanted from me, and knowing If I give that to you I might just disappear.
Nobody wins when everyone's losing
Oh, It's like one step forward and two steps back No matter what I do you're always mad And I can't change your mind,
Oh, It's like trying to turn around on a one way street I can't give you what you want and it's killing me And I, I'm starting to see Maybe we're not meant to be
It's never enough to say I love you No, it's never enough to say I try It's hard to believe that's there's No way out for you and me And it seems to be, The story of our life
Nobody wins when everyone's losing
It's like one step forward and two steps back No matter what I do you're always mad And I can't change your mind
Oh, It's like trying to turn around on a one way street. I can't give you what you want and it's killing me And I, I'm starting to see That maybe we're not meant to be
There's still time to turn this around Should we be building this up Instead of tearing it down But I keep thinking Maybe it's too late.
It's like one step forward and two steps back, No matter what I do you're always mad And I, can't change your mind,
Oh, It's like tryin to turn around on a one way street I can't give you what you want and it's killing me And I, I finally see, Baby that we're not meant to be
It's like one step forward and two steps back, No matter what I do you're always mad, And I, Baby I'm sorry to see, Maybe that we're not meant to be
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. I'm quite happy today. At least i helped Callisto house win something in Funfestique. Participated in "Do you know the song" and managed to win it together with XQ, Khairiah and Wainah. We rock. Haha. The 1st thing i helped my house to achieve since eons of yrs ago. I'll just have to thank my radio, my iTunes which has 1037 songs! and the wonderful songs that are in my head. HAHA. Guessing the song by playing the intro music is not easy lo. Damn proud of myself. This's the only recent thing that i can be proud of myself. The rest = i suck at it.
And another thing, the competition ended at 7 plus. Got home at 8pm. And kinda slacked. So i havent done anything up till now. i've gotta go chiong Geog essay now. And tml is EOM's draft 2 due date. Freak, havent started. Screw life. I want national day to come now T.T
Young 15 yr old Justin Bieber singing With You By Chris Brown. Friggin nice. Justin Bieber >>>> Chris Brown! Lucky Usher found such a talented 15 yr old and is signing him for an album. His first single is damn nice. Watch out for him. 15 yrs old and a superstar with an album. Wth. Jealous. His Wiki Page : Here His youtube channel : Here He tried singing lots of songs here. Nice. I'm just a sucker heh.