If u think that your friend's son is better than me, you can go and get him as ur son than. When will you stop comparing me with others? I hate it so much, Do u even know? Its been like that for so long. Well then, i'm sry im stupider. I'm sry im quieter. I'm sry im a passive learner or whatever shit.
If u ever notice, i've never held your hands since the day u found it irritating that i keep hugging ur hands where ever u go. I still rmb every single thing that happened, the exact same place, even tho it only took place within seconds. Everytime i walk by that place, i try not to rmb. But in the end, i still do. U let go/pushed off my hands just like that. Its really wierd how a simple act of just pushing my hands away from you impacted me so much. I was still young, primary 4, really fragile. 7 years ago, but i still rmber everything. Those people in school at that time, so torturous. Whatever SHIT that happened in sch, I don't tink u'd know. No1 would know, since i've never said it to any1. Did u even know at that time, u were my only support? Whatever it is, I still love you, so much. But the thing now is... We're so close, yet, so...
Blogger is still not recovering somehow. The posting box has resumed to normal size, But the top bar to adjust everything is gone. And i can only type in the edit html part. Why? I've friends who's experiencing it too. Blogger is shyt.
My life's is really really really^10000 boring. There's practically nothing to talk about. And there's so much irrelevant stuff. PW sucks as usual. What else can i say? School's killing me.
Oh yea, today my pregnant form teacher AKA math teacher scolded class. And demoralised us like crazy. Its really puzzling as to why pregnant ladies PMS so much. So she said, we're quite hopeless etc. And that our class has the MOST people whose parents have to see her out of the whole cohort. Eh. 09S417 is NOT stupid for goodness sake. Teachers arent even suppose to bring students morale down. She also said if we maths fail then we can forget about passing our other subjects. Besides, she also indirectly stated that our class were stupid enuf to take the subject combi we're taking. Chem = high failure rate. Maths = CMI Econs = duno what shyt. Saying that the ARTS classes pass easily with their 'easier' subjects ain't making us feel any better.
At the rate im going, I'm not sure i can even pass promos. Finger crossed. My maths isnt gonna work out anytime soon without any math teacher. And mum is gonna meet my form teacher within the next 1 wk. I'm so dead once she knows my results. Trying to focus on Chem and econs. But they're all saying that Chem is dam difficult in promos and that there's no hope in passing. Don't know. I dun wanna retain. Its not my fault that negative thoughts of retaining are bugging me every now and then. Its not my fault that I SUCK IN MATH. I've made up my mind to stay back in sch everyday until around 5+ or 6pm during the weekdays to mug/do hw. Hope it works out :/ But once i get home, i'll get on the com straight away. Damn. Worried, but i dont know what to do. Hate this feeling of the unknown. Why in the world did i enter JC?
Oh n Btw, You should stop appearing around me cause YOUR VERY PRESENCE irks me. Get the hell out of my sight. Scram as far as you can. Anything, whatever, just GET LOST. U've no idea how much i can't tahan u. I hate the very fact that u can act like nothing happen. Well then, Good for you. I can't believe i actually know someone as heartless as you. I sometimes wonder what's inside that brain of yours. Do you even care? Tell me. I'm sure you know.
I tried to be perfect, But nothing was worth it, I don’t believe it makes me real. I thought it’d be easy, But no one believes me, I meant all the things I said.
If you believe it’s in my soul, I’d say all the words that I know, Just to see if it would show, That I'm trying to let you know, That I’m better off on my own.
This place is so empty, My thoughts are so tempting, I don’t know how it got so bad. Sometimes it’s so crazy, that nothing can save me, But it’s the only thing that I have.
If you believe it's in my soul, I’d say all the words that I know, Just to see if it would show, That I'm trying to let you know, That I'm better off on my own.
On my own...
I tried to be perfect, It just wasn't worth it, Nothing could ever be so wrong. It’s hard to believe me, It never gets easy, I guess I knew that all along.
If you believe it’s in my soul, I’d say all the words that I know, Just to see if it would show, That I'm trying to let you know, That I’m better off on my own.
I duno what the heck it happening to blogger.com. My posting box shrank to a very small size. About the size of my youtube playlist. How in the world am i gonna post like that? Damn. Gonna make do with it and hope it reverts back to normal. Its been like that for 2 days alrdy.
And i havent posted for almost a week alrdy. And thats cuz there's nothing to post. My life's so mundane. Sch sch sch and still... SCH.
The things i can only rmb that was impressionable was that there were 2 people who asked me to call them sumthing. Haha. Tan Shili and XueTing! Tan Shili wanted me to WORSHIP her. And Xueting wanted me to say that she's the best. Both need ego boost! Haha. K luh, I should credit them At least.. So, Shili intro-ed me nice english songs..
The 1st few songs that were latest downloads. And i got 1016 songs in my song bank now. I want 2000. Continuing on, so Shili wanted me to WORSHIP her cuz she sent one song to me, which in the end didnt work out. No, i still won't. I'll just say THANK YOU again here.
And XT wanted me to say she's the best, cuz i tink i 'offended' her. Right. But she's the bestest! (not sarcastic!) So both of them shld be happy. No worshipping or whatever sort. Haha.
Wootz. Bleeding Love's no longer my most played on iTunes! Mirotic beat it!! 219 plays, and rising. So addictive, still, even though almost 3 quarter of the year past since the time i dl it.
1. Having 3 P.E periods in a week is just utterly disgusting. Esp when we're not playing games. Makes people so damn friggin tired. 2. Lectures on friday afternoons turns ppl off. Just because they got all the time in the world they think they can drag the lectures on forever. We students need some life. 3. The waiting time from 10.25-2.30 to wait for Fridays lecture lessons to start is so unproductive. End up in the library slacking and playing miniclip games with the guys. 4. I need some life back + more sleep. Considering the fact that my weekends including today will be spent on slacking/going out, i dun tink i'll be able to complete my tutorials and HW in time for monday. Its a vicious cycle, i'm going nuts. Maths SUCK TO THE CORE. 5. I'm gonna watch Harry Potter this sunday. But i havent watched the goblet of fire and order of phoenix yet, neither have i read the book. So i'm gonna watch it online now after i type this out. And i juz read the plot of the Deathly Hallows on wikipedia. Its so confusing. 6. My iTunes finally finally hit 1000 songs - accomplishment. Yes, Me and and my illegal downloading almost everyday. Its all for my listening pleasure :D
Alright i'm done. Gonna watch the 2 longgg movies now in HD :D Or mayb just one. Cuz i'm damn tired.
Its all damn sucky. Yes, i'm referring to my Mid yr results. And i didnt pass a single crap. And thats cuz i didnt study/gave up. But then again, i chose the easier way out. So, hopefully i wont regret my decisions. I dont take chinese, so there wont be a single pass in my result slip. Those who took chinese at least still have a pass in the result slip. Damned. I failed, terribly. Way below the borderline fail. Its the atrocious^100000000 fail. H2 Maths -> 5/70. 7% upon hundred. U. I totally owned the maths paper. I thought i'll be the lowest in class. But no i wasnt. Thats a miracle considering that i dont take A.Math. Btw, only 1 person passed maths, and 1 person scored a sub pass out of 23 people. H2 Chem -> 24/100. 24% in total. U. Section C scored only 1/30 :D Chem also one person passed. H2 Econs -> 20/75. 27% in total. U. I was sleeping during econs cuz i didnt study for it. And i scribbled and coloured my question paper during the exam. Getting 20 is more than expected for me. 7 ppl passed econs i think. H1 Geog -> 32/75. 43% in total. S. Dammit. I studied/read for geog the most. In the end got S. My hopes were pinned on geog to pass. In the end only sub-passed it. H1 GP -> 41/100. 41%. S. Expected from from my louzy english. So the conclusion is that all H1 subject got S. All H2 subject got U. UUUSS. I like my results. Rite. Time to mug harder. But i doubt i hv the motivation. This is worse than Os... I'm beginning to give up on maths.. Altho i know i shldnt. I totally dun understand a single shyt what the teacher is talking during lectures/tutorials. How to pass maths?!
And so i thought i could go home every friday at 10.25am. Thats cuz i hv no more lessons after that alrdy. Then there comes EXTRA econs lectures and EXTRA chem lectures EVERY EVEN week Fridays. At the timing of 2.30pm-4.30pm. Totally turned OFFFFFFFF. In between got so much shyt time, duno what to do. Mugging huh? Ok, so now i thought, at least every ODD week fridays i still can go home early. Happy :D But guess wad? Hell no. Maths just WANTSSSSSS to torture my life. So now, every ODD week fridays there's maths REMEDIAL at 2.30pm-3.30pm. And it only applies to those who don't take A.Math and those who got B4 and below for A.Math in Sec sch. I'm e only one in class who don't take A.Math. At least there's sicko Jarren to accompany me cuz of his louzy A.Math results :D Going through A.Math topics like surds and log etc. Now i feel so dumb. I'll just take it as a punishment for dropping A.Math! @#%#$*)_)(&^%$# Oh yea. So what now? NO MORE going home early on Fridays. In the end still have to stay back later than mondays. My life is cursed for nuts.
1 more song to add into itunes before.......... Ok. Time to go do EOM(PW) draft 1 now. So damn lazy to do! But before i go. Pls help me complete :
This survey. Above in the box are the 2 links. There's 2 different surveys to do. Wont take u more than 2 minutes to complete in total. This is needed for my PW grades. So i'll appreciate it if u could help to do :D Thanks to all who's done it!
Seems like it was yesterday when i saw your face You told me how proud you were, but i walked away If only i knew what i know today Ooh ooh
I would hold you in my arms I would take the pain away Thank you for all you've done Forgive all your mistakes There's nothing i wouldn't do To hear your voice again Sometimes i wanna call you But i know you won't be there
Ooh, i'm sorry for blaming you For everything i just couldn't do And i've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days i feel broke inside, but i wouldn't admit Sometimes i just wanna hide, cuz it's you i miss And it's so hard to say goodbye When comes to this, ooh
Would you tell me i was wrong? Would you help me understand? Are you looking down upon me? Are you proud of who i am? There's nothing i wouldn't do To have just one more chance To look into your eyes And see you are looking back
Ooh, i'm sorry for blaming you For everything i just couldn't do And i've hurt myself
Oo-ooh If i had just one more day I would tell you how much that I missed you since you went away
Oo-ooh It's dangerous It's so out of line To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you For everything i just couldn't do And i've hurt myself.. by hurting you
He doesnt know whats wrong with his life. Its all so screwed up. He didnt know who he was, never. He's tired and sick of everything. Yes, there help was offered to him. He wasn't used to it at all. After all, all these years, he faced it on his own. What else is there to make a difference? He tried opening up, But failed, miserably. All his life, he's been keeping it in. What difference does it make now? And since when did he actually open up? He hated himself and didnt wanna be who he was pretending to be. No, he hated living up to the expectations of others. Its all gotten into his head. Trust. He forgotten what it was, never knew. Betrayal bestowed. It got even worse now. He couldnt help himself. That feeling of loss, he’d tasted it all these while. From the start, it was his fault. If he hadn’t said those words, then, he wouldn’t be in the state whr he is now. He has no one to blame but himself. He just wants to restart everything, everything, another time. Why is he still breathing? Time to let go.
Freak shyt. This is kinda scary. I actually found my shoebag that i lost more than 3 months! I lost it on 3rd of April. And on 10th of July today, i found it. I lost it wen i left it outside the library. And i found it outside the library, at the corner today. Did some1 juz kidnap my shoebag or sumthing. The amazing thing is that my stuffs were all still in there. My deodorant, SPORTS SHOE, P.E shirt n pants and plastic water bottle all inside. Crazy shyt. I saw the shoebag yesterday outside the library alrdy, But didnt bother checking if its mine. Cuz i thought the person who took it wont return alrdy. Today i saw it again so i juz opened and checked. Turned out it was mine. My PE shirt was STINKING like a garbage dump. Imagine a sweaty PE T-shirt not being washed for 3 months plus. Dam stink! My shoe was also kinda stink cuz it stayed inside the zipped shoebag for 3 months. And the exterior of the shoebag was dam dusty. Woa. Nice 1. I found it. Miracle.
Another IMBA thing about my class is that... Nobody passed maths Mid Yrs except 1 person. The other 22 all got U according to my teacher. Wl. Wth is this. Nvm. I'm beginning to think that im gonna get single digit >.>
I hate my GP teacher now. I hate my Maths teacher, who's also my form teacher now. I'm ok with my Geog teacher. I like my Chem teacher. I love my Econs teacher, who's also my PW teacher. Basically, the subject with the teacher i hated the most now changed over to a nice tutor. And the subject with the teacher i previously like the most now changed over to a not nice tutor. Just as i thought it'd be..
I blame myself for still breathing. It's not the same.
I dun want this to happen. Those things they said. Those things that happened, Its etched so deep. I cant say anything else more, except to withstand it. I'm so stupid. What else is there to say?
The ultimatum's gonna end. Even Harper's Island is having its 2 hr finale this coming sunday. I think mediacorp want me to mug.. No more shows to watch alrdy!
Yes, its expected that i'll complain about sch reopening tml -.- The past 4 days was HEAVEN ON EARTH. I slacked so much more as compared to the June hols. Slacked like mad. Chionged Boys over Flowers drama serial, completed 22 episodes alrdy. Thats my 1st drama serial after 1 year. The last one was Bullfighting last yr. Decided to watch during these 4 days since its rated so high among ppl. Even guys-.- 3 more episodes left to chiong. Hate the main guy char. The songs kinda addictive. Only SOME. I took around 3-4 days to complete watching. Unlike some chiongster fairul who only took 1 day plus - he chionged 25 episodes str8.
Its the end of relaxation. The end. End of temporary holidays. And than we'll start the countdown to the deathly promos. Pathetic life.
I'll go mad tml.
Sunday, July 5, 2009 @ 12:48AM --> 207th
A Daily AntheM - David Cook
Break your neck for some substance This is temporary sanity, an exercise in vanity So long, to the ordinary day wrought with fictitious tales Of how there's any other way Hold on to anything at all It's a long way down between the summer and the fall If I told you that you're everything, Would you sing along? Would you sing along?
It's a daily anthem Would you sing my song, At the top of your lungs? And we'll all sing along, We'll all sing along
It's a half-baked blessing For the lessons I've learned, Never deserved. And we'll all sing along, We'll all sing along
Now the verses take hold, A gentle undercurrent or more years to grow old Say goodbye to the cold And try to begin everything: there's life
As we sing your daily anthem, Would you sing my song, At the top of your lungs? And we'll all sing along, We'll all sing along
It's a half-baked blessing For the lessons I've learned, Never deserved. And we'll all sing along, We'll all sing along
Finally its over. Mid yrs are officially OVER. Feeling as light as a light now. Actuali this feeling is better den the June hols. Cuz during the June hols deep down inside, u noe u've juz HAVE to mug for the Mid yrs. And that guilty feeling bugs u lyk crazy if u dont study. But then again, i didnt study at all. Mid yrs are SCREWED up to the ultimate MAX. I only have faith in my geog to pass (hopefully). Chem paper was KILLER. Section C out of 30 marks i tink i can score less den 10. MCQ got no friggin time at all. I tikam-ed half of the paper. Anyhow shade. Ughh. I screwed up lyk hell luh. But i dun reali care.. Monday's PW day >.> And I have 4 days to slack, So i better slack lyk a REAL slacker before there's no more chance to slack. I hope sch closes cuz of H1N1. Still hoping, yes. PARTY TIME!
Lady FaiFai : Joshua, Lily Allen has something to say to u. Me: Wad? Lady FaiFai : *Plays Lily Allen song which is named ***k you using his phone* Me: *Stares*
And Daniel's joke about MJ is dam funny.
Q: Whats the similarities between Michael Jackson and X-Box? A: They were both black before, then they turned white and they're both turned on by young kids.
